情谊

Recently realized that,

I could make many friends,

but I'm not good be friend with others or

not good in the relationship of friendships

Can't deny that I have friends around

but,

everyone seems not very kind

hmm.. other word mean not close at all

just because we know each other name or some other surface matters

so call friends..

Actually look around myself

like many people always with me

but actually in a group of people

I'm still alone

feeling that

every session,

every shooting,

every process,

every enjoyment,

i is the person who can be ignore

Sorry friends,

I don't wishes to give pressure you all

I just hope i do anything that i able to you all

If this is the fate,

I just can accept, no otherwise

A close relationship is not easy to find

but once it found,

It easy gone.

Should i continue having a hope to have a close relationship

or 

don't hope any more.

I'm being tired..